Creative pause

I’ve been writing for a while now, and I’m still waiting for it to feel like an organic part of my life. I’ve tried the “make it part of your routine” and the “do it when inspiration strikes” approach. And all I’ve learned is that you can’t force it, not really.

You can struggle to string a few words together into a sentence if you try hard enough, so in that sense you can force it. But there’s a fine line between powering through writer’s block and wasting your time. There are instances when even as the words are being put to the page, you know none of them are going to make the cut. In the past I’ve convinced myself that bad writing is always better than no writing, but now I’m not sure that’s true.

I’m deep into the second volume of 3-4-1 now. That means I’m writing four stories on a deadline. Usually I work well to deadlines. But this time, after I started and stopped my second story about three times over two weeks with the due date ticking closer, I realized that sometimes no writing is better than bad writing. And here’s why:

Brainstorming.

That period of no writing isn’t always a waste. Trying to shortcut the brainstorming process and write the idea anyway can hurt more than help. But no one else can tell you when it’s brainstorming and when it’s procrastinating—you have to be honest with yourself. On the flip side, don’t let others convince you that deciding not to write for a day or a week or a month is automatically laziness. It’s your idea and your writing process—only you know what will work.

The problem with trying to write an idea when it’s not ready is that you might commit to the half-formed idea and stunt its full potential. Sometimes how something looks when it’s still growing isn’t close to how it looks fully formed: like a caterpillar to a butterfly. When you come in halfway through the process and try to interfere, the results might not be as good. Where you force the idea to go might not be as interesting as where it would have gone on its own.

The first two starts of my aforementioned second story I thought were good ideas, but they both stalled shortly after the beginning. Because of the deadline, I felt I had to write every day or I was wasting time. Now that I’ve finished that story, on the third try and with a concept completely different from the other two, I think those other two starts were the real waste. Those fragments will probably never become larger stories in their own right because their themes were the basis of the third story.

The words I forced out distracted from the brainstorming instead of contributing to it. I lost weeks of time trying to force one of those other two stories to be something, dammit! Maybe the third and final idea still would have taken that long to come alive, but maybe the time I used trying to harvest these other ideas before they were ready detracted valuable time from the actual final story. And maybe those other two ideas would have become other great stories in the future if I had just left them alone for a little longer.

Of course, waiting until a story is ready is all well and good until there’s a deadline involved. It’s a hard balance and an individual one. Some massaging of the idea, some forced brainstorming, and yes, maybe some bad writing, might all help speed the story along. It depends on how your own creative process operates. But overall, I’ve been trying to de-emphasize “productivity” in the sense of producing something tangible. I’ve been trying to redefine it to give mental productivity its fair weight.

I don’t want human lives to be measured in the obvious things we do or the tangible things we create or the money we earn. I want the benchmarks to be happiness, fulfillment, contentment. And for those measurements, I think the quiet moments are as crucial as the active ones. I think that’s doubly true for every kind of creative process.

I might be wrong. I’m not a rich, world-famous writer, after all. Maybe there is something in sitting down for hours a day, if you have that time to spare, and forcing words out even when they don’t want to come. Maybe that is how fame is achieved. Maybe fame isn’t what I want, then.

About Nicole DeGennaro

Burgeoning writer, insatiable reader, and continuous dreamer.
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2 Responses to Creative pause

  1. For me, sometimes forcing a story works (under a deadline) and sometimes it doesn’t. I have an upcoming deadline and I wrote three stories I wasn’t happy with and now am writing a fourth. My way of dealing with having to force a story is to write different ideas until I find one that works for me. When I find that perfect story it inspires me and it no longer feels forced, but comes naturally and becomes enjoyable to write rather than stressed. Sometimes I have to write some bad stuff first before the good stuff comes out.

    But I agree, everyone needs time to brainstorm and let ideas formulate on their own. If you try to force everything all the time that’s no fun at all.

    • But I agree, everyone needs time to brainstorm and let ideas formulate on their own. If you try to force everything all the time that’s no fun at all.

      I think that’s the main thrust for me, in the end. I think writing and other creative endeavors should be fun, above all! I mean, that’s easy to say when I have a 9-5 job to pay my bills. But I do think there is a lot of pressure out there for creative people to kind of be machines and to compare their output in their chosen medium with those in the same (or even other) mediums. I think that’s why so much “advice” can be found online, or so many people try to learn the “trick” of writing consistently or monetizing their writing. But in the end, creativity is a very individual experience. It can’t be duplicated from person to person—or even from project to project for the same person! But that can be frustrating for a lower-output person like myself when society puts emphasis on the output instead of the process. So I wrote this entry to try and reframe it for myself, and for others who might be feeling a similar frustration. 🙂

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